Now a staunch believer of "Vasudaiva Kudumbakam" - the whole world is my family, I used to have a personality which my father jokingly called "myself, my wife and a goldsmith" - which comes from a malayalam saying reflecting a prayer - 'when the deluge comes myself, my wife and a goldsmith (for making jewellery to my wife) only be saved...' or something which portrayed the height of selfishness...
I strongly believe in the concept that 'We are nothing and we do nothing - whatever happens is done by the divine'. With this belief only I chant 'Lalitha Sahasranama' daily without fail - however I used to chant the same when I was young only out of fear for my father.
When you are young, the concept of abiding blindly to elders instructions used to be belittled. I see myself as a living example to this misconception. Maybe the very reluctance to listen to my father, who wanted to make me a Nurse and instead I pursued my wish to do graduation in Economics, is the reason behind me continuing my education even at this age of 43.
From a very young age, my parents trained me to pursue education along with household chores and other manual labor (which was only half heartedly accepted by me then!). I strongly believe that this has helped me to face any adversities later in my life.
I believe to be among those people who realized, though late, in their life that anything can be achieved in life with a sober and open mind, verbal skills to influence others, an exemplary and systematic lifestyle, determination and punctuality as against a narrow mind, complexes and laziness.
My life has been a roller coaster journey of sweet and bitter physical, Mental and financial experiences. Due to acute cardiac problems as a result of own mistakes, there were even moments in my life when I was looking death on its face.
Though I bid farewell to medicines years back, I was a strong believer in doctors and medicines earlier. Those days, I was ready to consume any medicine (be it poison!) and believed that I couldn't survive even a single moment without medicines.
In 2001, I reached a stage where my body was not reacting to any medicine and was advised to undergo Angiogram and consume Aspirin Tablet to save my life. Fully realizing the fact that our heart loses two-third of its strength once affected, I would like to reiterate to my dear ones that no medicine can prolong your life span. This fact has helped me to prepare myself for any eventualities in life.
The realization that Food is the best medicine and there is no better medicine than proper food changed my perception that only medicines can cure diseases. This helped me to save my body from all medicines, which used to be a research laboratory for Ayurvedic, Allopathic and Homeo medicines.
I would like to recall the following excerpt from the diary of Shri Pyarelal, Private Secretary to Mahatma Gandhi.
"Bapu had been shot. Dr. Raj Sabharwal had placed his head on his lap. His wet eyes were looking at the shaking body. In a short while, before any treatment was started, he passed away. Before his passing away, Dr. Bhargava came and began to search for Edralin, an Allopathic medicine. I requested him not to take trouble to search any medicine, because Gandhiji had told us that no impure medicine should be given to him to save his life"
The saying in Malayalam "Panamillathavan Pinam" roughly translates to "without money you are a corpse". From my life experiences, I may be the right person who have experienced the bitter fact that no friend or relative will be there for you in your times of financial failure and bad health. May be there is no better person than me who stands testimony to this fact.
Without exception, there had been certain individuals in my life who has stood by me in times of need who cared not for reward but for the person that I am. I would like to say that I am indebted to them in this life and in as many lives to come.
Most people in this world perceive the display of love to be the reality whereas I have made enough enemies from my nature of frank expression of opinion.
Though most people would like to highlight their achievements, I would like to list out here a few of my setbacks in life which can be an eye opener for others.
Among the long list of my failures, only Yoga and Naturopathy has helped me in steadying my life and helped to serve others with my life.